reminiscence.

Last year's wishes are this year's apologies.

2009-01-21T00:55:00.008+08:00

Happy 2009 everyone.

2008 was great. I left the commitment behind to do my best for O's. I studied hard. I learnt a lot. I made new trusty friends. I experience more about the world. I met a girl that have been thru thick and thin with me. I dance to the beat of life. I love the way i are.

I know this blog have been dead for some time. This probably gonna be the last post before i finally erase it once and for all.

Anyway, i met someone that inspired today. I was feeling kinda of abit unsatisfied about anything and everything. Somewhere somehow in G2000, i approached this man that needed help in deciding which size to buy and he seems like a God send person. We started off by chatting about the colours of the polo tee his gonna buy and then he shared to me about his life experiences that he had been through, suffering from internal brain injury and not giving up hope in life and even escaped death.

I couldn't believe it at first because he looked normal. He started telling me that i should really appreciate what i have and study hard because i have a bright future ahead of me, should i fall along the journey, i should get on up and continue. He gave me a name card and told me to learn from his experiences and this was what i found: "Takalah". I'm truly amazed at his life man.

Anyway apart from that, i'm resigning soon from G2000. Couldn't get used to the hectic pace of the work and yes it's seriously tiring me out. As much as i wanna leave, i couldn't bear to say bye to the people there man. Everyone's so nice and sincere towards me :(

Oh yes, Posting results gonna be out real soon and i screwed up my choices for JAE. I'm feeling pissed but whatever.

I pray that everything's gonna be alright.

"Ain't nothin` but a mistake."

Lastly, Happy Anniversary love (:

how bout a holiday please?

2008-10-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously,

Tired, Tired, Tired, Tired, Tired!

Shag, Shag, Shag, Shag, Shag!

I wanna go on a holiday please?

I'm starting to hate city life.

Santa Monica? Las Vegas? Los Angeles? Dubai? Canada? Japan? Taiwan? Definitely not China.

I wanna go on a holiday! ;[

demoralized.

2008-10-21T21:18:00.003+08:00

2 words - fuck it!

I studied the hell outta chemistry. 4/5 of it! 1/5 was predicted that it wouldn't came out. and guess what? 4/5 of it didn't came out, only fine 2 to 3 questions of it. That pathetic 1/5 of it killed me. I don't know how i fair, seriously.

It's not a matter of me not studying hard enough. I spent hell lot of time on chemistry! And that means i burnt 3 nights of chemistry for nuts? It's the small minor thing that cost my death! It was an A1 or A2 at first sight. I knew it was titration, it was titration! But i got fucked up cos i didn't realised about the "psa" salt shit.

Moles, drawing of esters and blast furnace didn't came out. Chemistry was disastrous. Hell yeah.

Had english today. Totally screwed up for my paper 1. Though at times i really do enjoy stoning real much, i didn't expected my mind to go metal block for the second time like what happened on N levels, i crushed 5 papers. This time, i crushed 10 papers! 10 fucking papers!

My mind was going crazy, i even thought of just standing up and scream "RAWRRR!" in the middle of the hall. I was at the 45 mins mark with 2 sections of english paper 1 BLANK. The question was seriously easy. Pure nuts question.

- Greed
- The delights and the frustation of a teenagers.

I wrote the teenager one. I knew what to write. I had a plan. But it just didn't work out for me. I was trembling with fear. 45 mins. What the fuck can i do? I had no choice, i just browse thru the letter writing and picked up my pen. I had to write. I had to write no matter what. But my mind was blank. Took 5 mins to breathe real deep. 40 min. My future. English was one of my best subjects. Don't let me down. I just wrote non-stop. Honestly, i don't know what i was writing. I just wrote and rushed thru the two sections. Compo and Letter.

My mind was pondering of how to get out of this situation. I hate the feeling. The feeling of getting lost and mental block. Just blank! Spent 20 odd mins on each section. And finally it ended. Left the hall with the 10 sheets of messed up papers in my hand.

Another 40 mins of break till paper 2. This time i gotta do well. I know.

Entered the hall and fuck the paper upside down. Got the shit out of the paper like many of us did. I really had to. I knew i gotta out more shit from the paper than some ppl did. I was happy. I felt accomplished. But when i looked at paper 1. I don't know what's to come.

Chemistry practical was average.
Chemistry paper suck.
English one suck, one good.

Tell me what now?

I'm totally hate it.

Last year's wishes are this year's apologies.

2008-10-18T14:45:00.007+08:00

Yay! I stayed up for a total of 19 hours yesterday. It wasn't a case of insomnia. It's was pure studying. Felt so accomplished suddenly, i really did quite a bit. Rushing non-stop through the books and sheets of paper with midget and val. Keith came a long after that.

Well, it's only 33 hours away to the start of our episode of the whole season of "Crossroads." Really hope i wouldn't fall sick at this period of time.

Anyway, though i don't really know what's ahead of me and time isn't really on my side. I can do it, i know.

Ready, set, go it's time to run
The sky is changing we are one
Together we can make it while the world is crashing down
Don't you turn around.

- Tokio Hotel

Cross Roads.

2008-10-12T02:35:00.006+08:00

Everything is changing.

Finally, i'm at the cross roads of my life. Nothing seems to bother me much when i'm young, cos it doesn't really matter if i screw up or not. But this time round, i'm really lost for words. 7 more days to the start of the whole trauma. What to do?

I"m feeling paranoid, lost, tired, helpless, drained, exhausted, pissed off.

Monday probably the last day of school for me. Five years of secondary school life just ended like that? I don't wanna end it. I don't wanna grow up. There's gotta be more than that. Friends would be going separate ways after that. Different schools, different commitment. Though we might promise to meet up and have fun, it just isn't the same anymore.

9th of October was probably the best day i had in school. Joy & laughter was in the air. Nothing seems to really matters when you're having fun. We had rollar chairs racing round the whole of the classroom block. It wasn't planned. It just came like that.

No time for regrets right now. I just wished that time would turned back for me to really study. Pointless to cry or tear. It ain't gonna help anyway. Study hard peeps!

"Why do all good things come to an end?" - Nelly Furtado.

how bout a round of applause? - rihanna.

2008-09-02T00:04:00.003+08:00

woot.

Yay, i'm back after months. I missed blogging. Lol. Had this urge to blog all of a sudden. Every thing's happening too fast, i'm starting to miss that nostalgic feeling of a care-free life. Studies was always on my mind. Screaming and whining didn't helped getting it off my mind for once.

Mugging was the only solution to solve this anxiety inside me. Seriously, screw this! With all this mixed-up feeling within me, i'm starting to feel as though i'm fighting a losing battle. Prolly thinking too much i guess.

Went ton studying last night with two bodohs. Fun i would say. But damn damn shagg. The next day feeling was the worst i would say. The plain emptied tired-ness would be enough to spoilt your day.

Imagine walking all the way to jalan kayu from drive thru mac just to eat the yuckiest prata i ever ate for the whole of my life. Walking at 4am in the morning on the road which we weren't supposed to be taking - CTE, was hilarious. Thinking how we gonna die next from a car crash on the CTE road with zooming cars at ONLY 90km/h.

Slept over at a bodoh's house which i could call it mine, but just that if i were to live there, everyone there would be leo-ster instead of a lin-ster. Lol. Didn't really slept much there as it wasn't comfy as i thought it would be. It's either too cold without a blanket or it would be too hot with a thick blanket on. To make matters worst, there's this bodoh trying to kick soccer in bed as though im the ball. So me, the unfortunately one had to somehow try to get some sleep while getting squeeze between them.

Bus-ed home in the evening which seems like the longest ride i ever took prolly because i was far too tired. Washed up and finally got some sleep. Woke up at 10 plus after that, only to find my stomach crying for food.

Shit, i think im gonna fall sick real soon. Flu, dry cough and headache.

SHAGGGGGGGGG.

3 more days till then.

later. (:

this is so true too.

2008-05-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

Friendster Horoscope for May 14, 2008
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

The Bottom Line
The tallest, toughest obstacles will melt into minor setbacks today. Life's good.

In Detail
Today you've got a much more focused energy than you have had for a while, and you can almost instantly make a molehill out of any mountain! The tallest, toughest obstacles will melt into minor setbacks and your plan for fun won't have to be delayed by one minute. Get ready to party. You're doing a great job of balancing your social life with your work or school life now, and this is going to enable you to feel more physically healthy than you've felt for a while.

horoscope.

2008-05-12T22:40:00.004+08:00

I don't really like the idea of reading too much into horoscopes. But for this particular day, i totally agrees with it! hah.

Friendster Horoscope for May 12, 2008
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

The Bottom Line
There is a greater clarity in your life today, and things finally make more sense.

In Detail
There is a greater clarity in your life today. It's almost as if a light has suddenly been turned on and things finally make sense. The reason for this could be a new person in your life, but it is more likely that you simply have made a connection between a past trial and what is going on now. You have learned, and are taking insight from your own heart to see things more clearly. In effect, you are able to give yourself your own good advice! It's more proof that you are growing.

shape of my heart.

2008-04-07T19:38:00.003+08:00

"Shape Of My Heart"

Hmm, yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become, oh yeah

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm lookin' back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart (:

debit card.

2008-04-02T23:19:00.003+08:00

Yay! Finally i got my name into the 11 mins mark. Lol! Ran 2.4 today. Was rather uncertain wheather my stamina will deprove due to the fact that i'm a passive smoker. Screw this. Well i breathe in 2nd hand smoke almost everyday if you know what i meant. However, i managed to get 11.50mins for my run. Hahaha, i feel very accomplished man! Cos i was first in class to finish the race (: wheeee.

Alrights, after school went for chem mass lecture. Was kinda tired after P.E but i've got no choice. After that went to Amk Hub with kai zhow and shaun to open a savings account @ UOB bank. Haha, my main purpose wasn't really to save money, maybe a motivation? But what i wanted was to get a debit card with visa in it! Haha. In the end, i gotten two cards instead of one. An atm card and a debit card. Lol! Cool yeah?

Hahaha. Okay damn. I just deposited 150 bucks into the account. Tomorrow i'm gonna transfer 127 bucks to someone else for the clothes that i bought online. Now i'm left with only 23 bucks in the bank. How cool can that be? Mmmmm..shall start saving soon (:

piece of crap.

2008-04-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

Damn. Started the day with lots of april fools, and it kinda seems to be a fake day. Cos apparently, everything that happened today is FAKE.

Today was rather fun. Went sakae sushi with kee soon, valerie and cheese. We were like celebrating April Fool's Day instead of valerie's belated birthday. Lol. Well, thanks to kee soon's treat. Ate lots of sushi, especially my salmon sushi. Gosh, it tasted heavenly at first. But it became a disaster after that. Everyone was so hungry that "Why not let's order more?". So food started streaming in with me finishing everything first.

Then, someone decided to order more food. So we started choking ourselves with food instead of enjoying it. Lol. Finally, everyone got so fulled that we started squeezing food that we couldn't finish into the compartment below the coloured plates and hid it. Lol. That's how things works when you've got no choice. Haha. No more sakae sushi for me anymore, at least for now.

Well, the whole of last weekend was kinda cool including yesterday and today. Went out with cheese. Talked, crapped and bitch around a lot. Hahah. Well, she's my good friend okay. So if your thinking of that, then too bad for ya. Hey, if your reading this, let's keep things simple yeah?

Ohoh, last but not least. I feel very stalked recently. Okay this is so damn weird. Nowadays, i kept hearing people calling "KEITH! KEITH! KEITH!". But guess what? I don't know the person, but the person know me! And i bluntly replied "Hi" for nuts? Strange as it seems, i don't give a tihs! (: HAHA.

That's all for now i guess.

Chill, later.

please don't stop the music.

2008-03-20T01:31:00.020+08:00

Dang. School today was ****ing boring. Career seminars talks for hell outta the 3 days while the lower sec have their camps going on. Slept plentifully this afternoon cos it was raining non-stop. The breezy chill feeling of the cold rain makes me feel very lethargic with the dark clouds on the sky of mine. Aiya, i don't really know how to describe the feeling but that's how it feels and i loved it. Lol.

Okay, i just spent 70 bucks on repairing my brother's friend psp as i accidentely dropped it on the floor in the hotel back in malacca. Obviously, the LCD screen cracked. Went to repair it ytd at IOI Plaza with kee soon and movie-d with him. Watched 10000 BC. Not bad la, but i didn't know they had english back in their era.

Was browsing thru the songs on the net when i came across the song "Crazy Baby" by Fantasy Project. Eah, it's a techno song which i love most back in my primary school days. Actually, i dislike techno a lot. Cos apparently, techno = noise. Haha, but i beg to differ now. It ain't that ugly either. Ehh, i like the beats leh. Nice nice. Part of it, it brings back partial memories of the past. Gees, i'm reminiscing right now =x Didn't really bother about the lyrics of the song, but like what i said, it's the beats that rock yay. Hmmm other than that, songs like "God Is A Girl & Moonlight Shadow" seems nice too. Gosh, i pray i'm not into technos. Lol (:

Ohoh, "In My Memory" by DJ Tiesto rocks too yay. Umm, it's not really techno but alittle bit of trance. In between la i would say. Heeeeeeeeeee.

Okay enough of that, i'm feeling kinda empty right now. Guess it's because the whole of this week no lessons and it's alittle weird. No plans, no lessons. Don't really know what to do exactly this week. Perharps alittle study? Haha. Get me that crocodile cardingan that cost 90 bucks and i might consider. LOL.

Now i shall post some stupid/random stuff i did in class.

a painful experience.

ehh. a picture paints a thousand words.

mundane school life that caused ppl to react in scenario 1&2.

scenario 1 - kee soon

scenario 2 - vandalism (my creation out of boredom)

randomness! trying very hard to add life into the table i use (:

*video - posted in the main page on top, something is wrong. I can't post it here.

romp 3.

2008-03-14T00:46:00.006+08:00

This week was rather an enjoyable one. Malacca trip was indeed fun and cool. Haven't got any photos yet, so will post it up as soon as i managed to grab some.

Well saw 3 movies recently. Leap Years, Sky of Love and Rule #1. Both romance and a horror one. Hah. All was average i would say. At least someone like me know how to appreciate the romance show. Though sky of love had many loopholes in it. Lol.

Alrights, romp 3 @ zouk was cool. As usual, it was hot, stuffy and crowded. However, i somehow managed to enjoy myself at least at a corner of the dance floor. Shuffling to the beat was nice, accompanied with 2 other malay shufflers and keith leo. Yay. This probably gonna be the last event for me till the end of O's i guess. Time to Étude ( study - french) alr!

Went kpool today with the usual people to chill then went off to meet mich, deng, rach and yining for dinner. Watched Rule #1 with them. It's nice, scary and saddistic but confusing. Haas.

Okay time for some heart crap. Many people might think i'm turning bad thru the things i do and stuff like that. But seriously speaking, i wanted a change in the sucky lifestyle i used to have. I'm definitely happy with what i am today. At least there's more life in the things i do. There are so many things in life i've yet to experience. So if you see this as an excuse or an escapism for me, then perharps you might be correct yet wrong.

"I might not know what the future holds for me, but at least i know what i want."

took this back in malacca - nolstagic.

interesting week.

2008-03-03T20:47:00.015+08:00

wooot! The whole of last week was super duper cool and fun. Went a 3.3 km run again in the park last thursday without bothering that friday was completed events. Left me with aches on my thighs the next day and again, i ran the 100m "b" boys race for pheonix. Apparantly, i screwed up. Haha, who cares? At least i took part ;D

Interesting thing that happened was that i think this year Pheonix is gonna win big time. Out of the many races i saw, pheonix always came in with like 1st and 2nd. Hahaha. Gosh i've yet to run the 4x100m relay and the CCA race as this year round, as a total of 96 lower sec ppl took part in both the 100m and 200m sprint together. That's why my relay was postponed to another day cos lack of time. Zzz!

Anyway, happy birthday valerie! Went sakae sushi with valerie, huiru, jiahui, wan fong, wayner and edmund on saturday for dinner. However, everyone started feeding me with food including the cake at the end. I was so filled that i almost puked. Bahh. Trained back to amk after that and went to kpool to chill. Shall post lots of wonderful pics later.

Alrights man. Went to eat Ichiban Sushi with cheese, valerie and huiru this afternoon before watching "The Leap Years" @ 5pm with the remaining jiahui, shaun, daryl and aaron who came along after we ate. Interesting movie i would say. Ima give it a 4/5. Very romantic and nice indeed. However, poor cheese and huiru cried in the end. Lol. Fine, i teared a little k.

Hmmm, i don't really know what to look forward to this week. But i'm very excited about the malacca trip this saturday and sunday. Woohoooo. Gonna go super wild when i get to the 5 star mahkota hotel at night. Perharps a little gambling would be fun? idk ;D

chill, got to go now. i'm beat. Later. (:

happy birthday! ;D

common test over!

2008-02-21T21:32:00.008+08:00

whooaa. i screwed up science paper. No time to finish doing either. POA was great, easy - piece of crap except for the theory part. Hahaha. Just got home from Amk Hub. Went ice creaming with freed.P @ andersons ice cream. Had a heavy convesation, k great.

Ran 3.3km today - the whole bishan park from end to end. Stupid P.T it's killing me la. Lol. Guess what? My timing was 18.30 mins! Not bad arh. Yay.

Anyway, went studying with cheese yesterday. Talked lots of crap. Before u even start imagining, i went to teach her POA k! So shut your brains off that idea :D

alrights, pictures time..

this is cool, cos i vandalised it on the table. and it's still there. (:

recent happenings.

2008-02-19T19:56:00.011+08:00

Okay. Since i'm kinda bored right now, shall blog about some recent happenings as i feel i express myself best in words (:

Alrights, let's start all the way from cny. Ate lots of heaty stuff, got cough and sore throat ever since then till now still not recovered as i worsen it by eating chocolate fondue, kfc and stuff like that. Did collected quite a number of ang baos but the quantity aint matter cos what i need was the quality. Lol. Okay now lets talk about fact: i've been living for 16 years of my life on earth and i didn't know i had 4 cousins at the age of 20 plus. Haha, this is definitely a joke man. But seriously i don't really care :P

Apparantly on thursday after media prac i got home late around 12am and somehow got trapped in the lift for half an hour. Damnit, a totally waste of time and i got freaked out. Being trapped alone in the lift wasn't nice at all. Haha. Shall post some pics later which i took in the lift ;X

Skipped school the next day cos wilfred was skipping so i followed blindly. Lol. Actually no, i wanted to anyway, haha. Went off to poly clinic with pierre after that to get MC cos he skipped school too, but guess what? I've got something useful like cough med and flu tabs. However pierre's gotten charcoal! Lol. Cos he merely fooled the doc into beliving him that he had gastric, tard. Haha. Went off to played pool after that @ snookerium and that place literally sucks. Hot, stuffy and the pool's table seriously cannot make it one. Haha.

Trained to marina square after that together with pierre, clara and sock yong to shop. Bought a new reddish transparant belt ;D seems nice after all. Had chocolate fondue with them @ andersons icecream. Darn, it was super duper nice la. Pooled again after that and saw miss ham and her husband. Pierre tried to trashed her husband and unfortunately his last ball didn't aim properly and sad case. Hahaha. Anyway, learnt the correct way of playing pool from pierre and i'm learning melbourne shuffling from him as well! ;D

That's all for the fun part. Now back to school stuff. Finally made up my mind to dropped A Maths after much contemplating, stuggling, stress and stuff like that. No point taking a subject which i know i could merely make it. Now that i'm only left with 5 subjects, i had to pass all without failing a single one of them as i took CLB as well. I rather choosed to be realistic rather than depending on my will power to achieve something where i see no end in it and neglect my other subjects. I should have taken literature if i could foresee this to happened. haixx.

Okay school's getting stress nowadays. I'm beginning to doubt wheather if i could cope as well as i thought i could. I know i need to pioritise my stuff accordingly. But there's something i hold on so tightly for years. I know it's true and real. I know i had to continue. But sometimes events, just keep piling up like no one's business and it demands a lot. Time was an issue. Don't even talk about planning of time when you don't even have the strength to carry out the task.

Been running this race for 3 years at least. I'm don't feel like running it anymore. Not being emo here. But now having a mind of my own of what the world is like gave me a second thought. I'm old enough to decide what i want. I still love him of cos, but being a lifeless churchy boy like the past was definitely a no.

random post.

2008-01-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

okayy this is real cool.

1. there are so many things i planned to do.
2. so many things i wanna achieve.
3. so many stuff i wanna buy.
4. so many dreams i wish that wouild come true.
5. so much stress i had in school.
6. so much ironical things that i wish would come to past.

..but i won't wanna share it! cos when i share it out. i'm not gonna do it. so haha! ;P

see ya peeps!

school re-opening.

2008-01-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

Crapp. Scored first blood during the first day of school. Didn't attended the sec 5 briefing thats why was called into the principal room. They said by not attending it means we don't show any interest in coming to sec 5, bullshit. Haha. School was great, definitely. With some annoying tards gone, studying in class seems possible now. Woohoo, i'm glad that i didn't get to be the chairperson again this time round. I wasn't even cut out to be in the first place. But oh well after suffering for 4 years, i'm finally free! Lol. Talking about responsibility, imma responsible school skipper chairperson in the past. Joke! ;D

Went to heeren with deng after school on wednesday to shop for my everlast shoes. Along the way, ate subway with deng and i stated choking myself with food cos i was starving all the way since lunch ;x Had a heart to heart chat after that with freedy in the evening and talked a lot at some cafe below cineleisure. Accounted and clarified some stuff out and phew! I'm glad i did it and learnt some stuff about people toying people's emotions. Blahhh shall not elaborate more. ;x

Anyway, trying very hard right now to discipline myself even more. Skipping school no more, controlled from excessive gaming, late night sleeping and etc. Sometimes i might even find school alittle weird, cos everything seems like a brand new thing to me suddenly. Many changes were made like new P.E shirts, new vice principal, my school hall was air conditioned finally and the style of educating us were also changed. But in any case, i know these changes were made better or even better for us. I'm loving schooooooooooooool. Lol. Now i love being in the company of my school mates even more. Everyone seems so matured and bonded right now ;D

Hmm, last year of my secondary school life. Don't wanna waste it just like that. I want a fun, cool and memorable one. Being the senior in the school and being at the age of 16. Youths like me love thrills if you get what i meant. Temptations seems so real and great suddenly. Exploring to new stuff seems fine. Doing certain things seems okayy. Lol. But all these all draws back to making a decision. Gosh, thoughts and ponders running circles in my head.

-listening to built to last by melee.

a break from all.

2007-12-28T11:42:00.000+08:00

Bahhh i need a break. Felt so exhausted after everything and everything. This whole week was exhausting i would say. Countdown @ orchard, shopping with mervin and deng, caregroup, swimming and carolling. Now all i want is to take a day off from everything. Yay! ;D

Yesterday caregroup was fun, yet speechless. Lol. I screwed up holy comm. Awww. "The harvest is plentiful and the workers are few" became "The workers are plentiful and the harvest is few". Oh well. I think i stumbled a few ppl twice with a slip of my tongue. Lol, the second incident, guozhang, pete and mervin should know. I'm sorry! ;X

I woke up late today, at 10.30am. Missed the sec 5 briefing @ 8.30am in school. Felt demoralised, haha. Cos i don't know what's gonna happened when school reopens. Gonna go pester my friends for more info later.

Supposed to have a MM retreat today. But didn't felt like going. The spirit is willing but the body is weak. Apart from that, money was an issue. Haha. All the more it was a retreat! I would rather have retreat at home with God neh. Haha, no lah. Or rather, since i'm at this state of exhaustion, spending time resting at home with God sounds more reasonable or rather a better option than to brave the open seas at sentosa ;P

Managed to crapp with aloy on msn yesterday. Haha. Haven't chatted and spend time with him ever since camp. Somehow miss having him around as a accompany ;( Lol. Anyway! Mum just bought me a new blanket, those cushion kind neh! I hate those clothfy kind one with only a layer of cloth. Hahaha! Thankfully, i managed to have a good night of sleep yesterday without fearing to get cold! But arh, it's purple in colour and it's printed all over with tom and jerry! LOL. Joke ah. Whatever, since i'm taking a day off today, i shall continue to cuddle in my blanket till im happy. See ya peeps!

aaron, jamesy & shaun after countdown @ cine.

freedy's amazing cg plan thru mms.

-listening to all in you by hope church bangkok.

tattoo.

2007-12-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

"Tattoo"

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you, I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

christmas.

2007-12-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

Boooooooooooooooo. I burnt money again! Went for count down at orchard with Aaron, Jamesy, Shaun and many others. It took me like 45mins to walk from behind wisma to infront of taka then towards far east plaza and then to wheelook. Seriously a joke. Lol. They literally closed up that stupid road which i can simply cross over towards wheelock rather than to walk till far east plaza and then cross that bridge.

The amount of people at orchard was terrifying. Lol. The whole metal ralling bar infront of ngee ann city was like bended on the floor? Sadly i didn't took a picture. Haha. Then during the squeeze, it was like rioting! Fun i would say. Lol. 2 banglas got like whacked up by some chinese guys cos i think they were like pushing so terribly and spraying the snow sprays that the chinese guys just flared up and whacked them big time. The police couldn't do anything also due to the amount of people. In the end, the whole orchard was filled with snow sprays on the floor. Lol.

Went movie with Aaron, Jamesy and Shaun to watch "I Am Legend" again. Lol. I spoilt the movie for them. Hahaha. Cos this movie has lots of pop ups if you know what i meant. We watched the 4.25am show, so ppl like Aaron and Shaun whom heart is at the weakest couldn't take shocks. So i was like telling them every single shocking part to keep them prepare. Joke! ;P
Got home at 8am in the morning that day.

Went off to michelle's xmas party at her house around evening with deng, yining and rachel. Woot. The lon tong was nice! ;D Hahah. Crapped so much till we decided to go sing KTV! But sadly, all was so expensive that we were left with no choice but movies again =.=" Watched the "Warlords". Interesting show, cos there were lots of bloodshred. But didnt expected that everyone died in the end and left me wondering, so meaningless?

Blahh, pictures later and i'm going vivo for shopping with mervin and deng! ;D

we are his legacy, this is his legend.

2007-12-24T04:25:00.002+08:00

Woot. Just finished watching "I Am Legend" online till 4.30am in the morning! The quality is super duper good la! Haha. Opps! It's pirating. Hahaha. Anyway, it's an interesting movie indeed. The whole concept brings out a very important and impactful message i would say. If everything you had was taken away from you, including your possessions, your love ones, the things you love most, who would you even trust in the end? If you were the last man standing on earth, do you still hold on to the hope you long to see or give it up just like that? Even in the midst of a storm, prayer works best. Bahh i need to improve my prayer life so much more and i need to trust God so much more! Trust Trust Trust ;D

For those who didn't wanna watch this movie for what so ever reasons, i strongly encouraged you to watch it! Ima give it a 9 out of 10. Not sure if it's okay to post a link here for you guys out there to watch it for free. Lol. But can get it from me personally or zhen long if you happened to see him. I copied and paste the link to him on msn. So chill! ;D

Holidays gonna end soon. I'm excited! Haha. More challengers, more problems and even more difficult situations i would be put to test. But i'm willing to run this race for the sake of everything, because i know it's all worth it. See ya peeps, nights! ;D

"We are his legecy, this is his legend."

- listening to tattoo by jordin sparks.

lala-ing.

2007-12-22T01:50:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. I literally burnt money today! Gosh. Went lala-ing today with friends. Haha. Was fun definitely, my second attempt. Learnt a few stuff here and there, then sadly there happened to be a police case, a sad case. Lol. Shall not elaborate more cos it's gonna be stumbling and only a few will know what's lala-ing. Hah!

Talked crap with Aaron and Jamesy. Was talking crap and laughing about our sec 1 life. So funny and dumb indeed when u recalled about the past. Bleahh. This shall be the last lala-ing session for me i hope! Haha, one to enjoy and reward myself for the hardwork i put in for N levels ;X

Got home at 8am in the morning. Slept till 2.30pm in the afternoon and headed off to hand in my application form for my secondary 5 life! This sounds cool. I entered school without bothering to wear a proper school uniform or do my hair. I just walked in straight with a so called slippers - a havaianas, with coloured hair and casual looking clothes. However, the guard was kind enough to let me in. Woohoo.

Hmmm, went marina south to eat steamboat with mum, sis and her boyfriend after that at night. Bahh i'm lazy to elaborate every single thing. Booooo.. i starting to get materialistic! sob sob. Fine i don't know what i'm typing im lost either. Shall upload some random pics i took recently! ;D

freedy, me.

the joy and laughter.

mervin.

random shot.

mervin in his demonic form.

deng in his own demonic world.

the short street in singapore! ;x

last but not least the most pathetic dog.

so; run

2007-12-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

Run..
If you’ve never won a race you’ve run
and have never set a record time
were you never able to jump high
or fallen at a hurdle before
still you must rise up and run on
for to simply try is all He asks
So rise up and run life’s marathon
for in Him do we rest and simply trust.
For Him we run, no matter the finish
For He loves even those who come in last.
Gold, Silver, Bronze - all will rust and tarnish
but a crown He gives to all who hold fast
So; Run
won't you stand up and give it another try again?

reminiscence - thats the word for this post.

2007-11-27T05:13:00.000+08:00

Took the time off to browse through this old com outside here in the living room cos i felt the sudden urge to use it. Fine, i miss using it. Haha. Was browsing through my documents and came across this so called super long blog entry that i typed out last year right after the breakthrough camp and didnt dared to post it out here cos i was too shy and it was too mushy! LOL. Well, it was as labelled as "Breakthrough Camp's Conviction."

Hmm, majority of the post was about the MM team and then just nice, my media player played the song "I'm Forever Yours"! I was feeling as though i was in camp! Gosh. That feeling so fresh, so comforting, so convicted and so desperate for souls. Gonna be another great camp ahead this time round i supposed.

Popped by the mm blog just a minute ago, seeing everyone so excited for camp, forever so faithful in the things they do apart from their hectic schedule and never being complacent. Ahh, i felt so guilty now. Haven't really been involved much in the mm side right now as i just picked myself up after that whole long miserable journey of life. It's a learning experience i would say. Haha. Too long to type out here, look for me and i'll tell ya about it! ;D

Yup, skipped a few friday trainings and giving lots of excuses to not turn up as the thought of travelling all the way down to nexus makes me go gaga. All the more, being so fragile in my spiritual life right now, draining myself even more will send me off to smoking. Ahaha, i'm just joking! You get what i meant will do. Bahh, was pondering over this person that played a big part in my life and i suddenly felt so guilty again! His like forever so understanding, forever so giving, never complaining and all the more his so loving towards the people around him. He might be alittle choleric at times and i just couldn't stand it simply because ima phleg. Gees. But overall, he have a sense of urgency and responsibility in the things he do! Boo, i'm very guilty now, cos i think i disappointed him a thousands of times in the way i do things and the way i reactions to circumstances. But still, his like forever so understanding give lots of grace( haha ) and never once did he scolded me for doing something wrong like being late like always. Haha, i wished he will scold me some day as to not make me feel so guilty =x . Sadly, i'm not gonna reveal his name. Lol. Go gaga yourself.

Hees yeah. Did lots of stupid stuff throughout the week like staying over mervin's house then deng's house. Played psp - dynasty warriors ( seriously a super nice game ) and ps2. Had lots of suppers at like 2am, 3am and 4am with mervin and deng? Go gym the next morning and run 2km, talk crap and bullshit over benny lava and the bun. Lol. Seriously no link. Hahah. Yup.

Bought a crumpler - the barney rustle blanket at like 105 bucks? Seriously a ripp off. Haha. Although it's new and sealed, it's an old model and it doesn't have warranty. But who cares? Oh it's a grey model that's no longer on sale. Got it on the forum and that person said he got it from a US supplier that was clearing his stock so i believe it's 100% authentic ba. Wheee. CRUMPLER. Pictures later ;D

Had some personal struggles recently like trying to sleep early and wake up early and retire from being a night bird, stop doing things that i like to do like MSN and dota which i don't have to do it everyday as though it's a must for me to log on to MSN everyday to waste time or a at least a dota game everyday like what freedy said. Gotta adapt to changes and don't let things hinder us from growing and take control over our lives. Hmm, got a convert from mayflower the week before last. Very excited for him and his called daniel! ;D A breakthrough for mayflower from stagnant living after a long time of harvestless. Haha.

That's about i guess? Managed to digg some stuff out below. Haix, i miss certain people that just come and go like that in my life and i just gotta accept the fact and live in regret that i didn't invested the time and treasure that friendship! Oh well, i'm off it's 5am in da morning :\

My post is very unorganized. - does this sounds familiar to u? Lol.

took this way back in sec 2 @ bishan cc with my geek specs :\

i miss schoooool :(

*listening to planet shakers - i'm forever yours.

contact lenses.

2007-11-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Wow. Contact lenses spree again! My sis ordered from this blog seller online this pair of one year permanent coloured contact lenses which cost only 38 bucks! The contact lenses came directly from korean and many japanese and singaporeans are using it. I believed it's 100% authetic ba, since my sis has been using it since last march and there's no problem with it. Haha.

Ah, i'm very tempted to get the sharingan one which cost only $45.20 with shipping! I'm still thinking cos i'll look like a freak with red sharingan eyes. w00t.

weirdos.

2007-11-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

Ahh. I feel so tempted to blog about this. But i don't wanna hurt the person. Fine, i can't stand weird people that says weird things to me and behave weirdly and expects me to say something weird back to ya? Goshh. No way! I mean go get alife! Your starting to freak me out and it's making me go crazy. Away from me weirdos! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

pictures uploaded.

2007-10-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

havaianas from check :D

i've got inspired! so this is it! lol.

havaianas; fellowship.

2007-10-24T05:05:00.000+08:00

Yay! Today was great. Ermm, i meant yesterday. Cos it's past midnight. Haas. Okay whatever. I did what i wanted, bought what i wanted, got what i needed, said what i needed, clarified what i don't know. Haas. Well, it all happened when i took the initiative to called zhicai. Woohooo. Actually didn't know taking the first step would make the day so exciting.

Met zhicai for a chat during the afternoon, somehow got to spend my time with him after so many many MANY days. haas. Bought my looooooooooong awaited "havaianas". Shall post up the picture later. It's very cool and nice k! So you ppl out there don't copy me or i shall ask zhicai to start throwing you around with his Judo skills. Lol. Just joking la! Honestly, i don't really care. (:

Anyway, managed to kope this library book called the "Real-Life Christianity" from zhicai. Heheh. Wanted to return the book for him inititally. But found it kinda interesting so i've decided to hold it till 28 of this month before i return it. Haas. Alright alright, spent my day mostly with mervin - my childhood friend! Accompanied him to amk library to study while i explore this book to see if it's worth reading. Saw kaizhow with his two gal friends. Lol.

Went off to amk hub's food court to have dinner with mervin after that. Aww, we shared lots of stuff. I think or should i say we know very well what we had just experienced cos both of us had been through that same old dumb thingy. At first i thought it was my issue! But then, i found someone who knows exactly how i felt at that point of time. Haha. Anyway, ate korean food for dinner, bought this weird ice cappuccino which includes - milo, milk and tea with foam on top of it. Had stomachache after drinking it and i felt as though i got scammed! Perharps the auntie don't know what is "Ice Cappuccino!"

From http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cappuccino ,
Cappuccino is an Italian, coffee-based drink prepared with espresso, hot milk, and milk foam!

Argghhh, whatever!

Yeong Deng came after that to join us for dinner and bus-ed home after that to wash up. Met deng and mervin again later at 11pm to study at kbcc mac with gideon. Well, didn't really studied much but had a long chat with gideon! Chat about the about the repeal377a thing, Adolf Hitler, Leni Riefenstahl and he inspired me to work for Google instead of my dream company IBM. I meant IBM is like nothing compared to Google! Lol.

Ah okay, if you don't know what i'm talking about i'm giving you a brief summary. (:
- Repeal377a is the law code which the homosexuals in singapore wanted the goverment to change, to legalise the acts of homosexuality in singapore. They even hired mediacorp artistes to support it. With this slogan: "It's not just a gay thing, it's about equality". Haas, i'm shocked. Go google it yourself if you wanna know more. There's a video on youtube too.

- Adolf Hitler, the powerful dictator whom commited sucided. Lol. Don't wanna type anymore, everyone knows.

- Leni Riefenstahl! The workoholic woman whom is a perfectionist. That came out with the video about Adolf Hitlter and she is the most loved and most hated woman in Germany. Well, i seriously admired her! She was the one that came out with all the different ways and different camera angles that no one had ever came out with and it's still very popular right now throughout the world. Even now the different angles camera shot that was used to shoot movies and dramas which you still see on tv right now was first explored by her. Gosh.

- Google! Ah, my dream place is to work there. One video can explain it all.
Check it out - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzRiTMlPlXk .

Okay, enough of crap. Time to sleep! Thats about it. See ya peeps! :D

new design.

2007-10-22T08:45:00.000+08:00

whee. stayed over at aloysius place with joseph on friday after video training class at nexus. haha was kinda fun. went for supper at some 80's look alike kind of place. after that went back to wash up and we worshipped God together and amazingly u know who can't sing. haha. shared some ghost stories and joseph was like "wei wei wei, i wanna sleep stop stop!". muahaha.

aww. but in the end. joseph went snoring the whole night leaving me with only 3 hours of sleep. sob sob. dun know about aloy, but i think he was already in his own dreams. haas. went for service the next morning feeling so exhausted and tired. damn, i think i screwed up quite badly during service. bahhhh. thumbs down.

anyway! i didn't sleep for the whole night again! haha was watching campus super 2 on mobtv. lol so funny la. watched the 1st episode where the audition took place. so dumb. then early in the morning, my hands feel itchy for some editing, so went to download photoshop cs3 and cracked it. opps. and taadaa! produced something for show. haha. i did my best to produce something as i gotta go hunt for brushes and fonts. haha yay. w00t. enjoy! (:

enjoying life in God's creation (:

random post.

2007-10-19T04:47:00.000+08:00

another post to start the day off! woohoo. went movie on wednesday with aloy at ceni. haaas. haven been spending time with him for months. thats bad. anyway, watched resident evil; extinction. not bad indeed. but it seems kinda short. haas, guess what? aloy screamed! hahaha. opps.

after movie, went to num to take a look at the havaianas that i wanted to get. sadly, it was all outta stock. how sad. i'm only left with da whity brasil havaianas, damn. didn't bought it as i haven made up my mind. ended off the day with a bulky hard disk which i had to carry it home. but to my surprise i manage to kope many songs that i didn't had haha. i even saw gideon's version of come holy spirit in it. bleahh.

look. it's 5am in the morning again. just finish having a nice chat with sherman on msn. ohh his a nice dude. hah. started off with crapping then ended off with getting to know him even more together with his patamon. whatever. yup. hey if u're reading this just wanna say thanks for the verse! =]

Psalm 121
A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

outreaching today. time to sleep but i dun know if i'm able to wake up later. alright alright let me think about it. later people..

insomnia nights.

2007-10-17T04:56:00.000+08:00

hmm, it's 4.58am now in the morning right now. i'm tired, yet awake. how cool can that be? nahh, i'm not troubled. just didn't felt like doing anything. anyway, suddenly thought of what gideon said that day @ mac when deng, mervin and him was there for supper and study. well i wasn't there to study, in fact i was just there to have supper. well gideon said sometimes being a melancholy, we tend to be different in the way we reaction to the things around us compared to others. basically, we are unique. lol. hah. well, being a melancholy sometimes could be a good or bad thing. depends on how u look at it ba. for me, sometimes i tend to reflect on the things i do everyday and maybe get alittle emotional over certain things in life which may be good and sometimes bad if i dwell in it too much. (:

went for wam night yesterday. the sermon was long, draggy and alittle boring at first. but impactful in the end. was taught about the spirit of excellence and willingness to trust God in every circumstances which was quite relevant to me i guess. during altar call, there was a time where we were given a chance to get prayed for. ah i went down of course. prayed for the same old prayer again. but this time round was about lost passion and fire. no point if i'm willing to do it when i don't have the fire burning it me. at the end of the day, everything would just be a burden to me.

was actually pondering over many things through out the night. well, i just couldn't decide on what i really want. i've got 2 months ahead of me right now and i don't wanna waste it like how i use to do it. well, i used to say i didn't have enough time. now i've got too much time. i wanna grow so much more. i know i'm not alone. u are in this together with me too ya?

listening: oceans will part.

sentosa outing.

2007-10-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

whoa. yesterday was fun yet tiring. haha. went to sentosa with aaron, ian ghwee, pear, daryl, desmond quah, daniel, kai zhow, shaun, jian an, wayner, edmund, valerie and clara. initial plan was to meet @ 9am. and again, thanks to aaron we waited till 10am! =.=

after that left for vivo to makan and wait for aaron as he decided to travel himself there by bus. lol. hmm kinda tired and draining actually as i didn't sleep the whole night yesterday, cos was busy trying to edit my wonderful new blog and to prevent myself from getting late. yay! it's up finally. hehes.

arrived @ sentosa roughly around umm 12 plus? then played in the water and run everywhere like mad till 5pm. then someone came out with his idea of running into the sea from the shore trying to hit the ball with his leg or head while someone throws the ball up. then everyone starting doing that. LOL. fine it's dumb definately. bleahh. aiya but after all it's fun. haha. almost everyone got sun burnt. ohoh and yes! idk why. but everytime i go sentosa, i see indians! what's wrong with them. this time they come in batches and worst still. we saw 1 of them taking off his underwear with only a towel wrapping his tada* .

im not racist k. but it's just that cmon, sentosa is not little india! then why so many of them? they are like everywhere k. lol. it's freaking annoying when u see them taking pictures and videos of ppl like us when we are enjoying ourself on the beach. haha. ok enough of ranting im gonna upload some pictures i taken through the whole week. enjoy!

cartoon characters. look @ jian an's kuku's face. the 4th one from the left.

daryl and me. devils. lol

random.

om trying to play cam with us. cmon look @ how many ppl we've got!

random shot.

om with me.

aaron, valerie and me.

valerie.

om trying to be one of us. lol.

tada! the end. happy b'day aaron and pear. (:

new blog.

2007-10-13T06:26:00.001+08:00

yay. finally got the time to edit and finish up this long awaited blogskin. hah. definately a totally cool and unstyled blogskin i supposed. crap i spent the whole day till now it's 6.27am to edit and test this blogskin. aww im dead beat. sentosa today, i'm gonna die like awww. okok see ya ppl!