ed in reminiscence.indulg

"Memories are playing like a film without sound".

2008 was definitely great.
However, all good things come to an end.
It was hard but still,
Thanks "http://reminiscence-keith.blogspot.com" for being my listening ear all this while.

Reminiscence as always.

Blog officially closed on 25th February 2009.

Love, Keith.

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# how bout a holiday please?
Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I'm seriously,

Tired, Tired, Tired, Tired, Tired!

Shag, Shag, Shag, Shag, Shag!

I wanna go on a holiday please?

I'm starting to hate city life.

Santa Monica? Las Vegas? Los Angeles? Dubai? Canada? Japan? Taiwan? Definitely not China.

I wanna go on a holiday! ;[

it's because u make me believe in myself; 10:30 PM
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# demoralized.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008

2 words - fuck it!

I studied the hell outta chemistry. 4/5 of it! 1/5 was predicted that it wouldn't came out. and guess what? 4/5 of it didn't came out, only fine 2 to 3 questions of it. That pathetic 1/5 of it killed me. I don't know how i fair, seriously.

It's not a matter of me not studying hard enough. I spent hell lot of time on chemistry! And that means i burnt 3 nights of chemistry for nuts? It's the small minor thing that cost my death! It was an A1 or A2 at first sight. I knew it was titration, it was titration! But i got fucked up cos i didn't realised about the "psa" salt shit.

Moles, drawing of esters and blast furnace didn't came out. Chemistry was disastrous. Hell yeah.

Had english today. Totally screwed up for my paper 1. Though at times i really do enjoy stoning real much, i didn't expected my mind to go metal block for the second time like what happened on N levels, i crushed 5 papers. This time, i crushed 10 papers! 10 fucking papers!

My mind was going crazy, i even thought of just standing up and scream "RAWRRR!" in the middle of the hall. I was at the 45 mins mark with 2 sections of english paper 1 BLANK. The question was seriously easy. Pure nuts question.

- Greed
- The delights and the frustation of a teenagers.

I wrote the teenager one. I knew what to write. I had a plan. But it just didn't work out for me. I was trembling with fear. 45 mins. What the fuck can i do? I had no choice, i just browse thru the letter writing and picked up my pen. I had to write. I had to write no matter what. But my mind was blank. Took 5 mins to breathe real deep. 40 min. My future. English was one of my best subjects. Don't let me down. I just wrote non-stop. Honestly, i don't know what i was writing. I just wrote and rushed thru the two sections. Compo and Letter.

My mind was pondering of how to get out of this situation. I hate the feeling. The feeling of getting lost and mental block. Just blank! Spent 20 odd mins on each section. And finally it ended. Left the hall with the 10 sheets of messed up papers in my hand.

Another 40 mins of break till paper 2. This time i gotta do well. I know.

Entered the hall and fuck the paper upside down. Got the shit out of the paper like many of us did. I really had to. I knew i gotta out more shit from the paper than some ppl did. I was happy. I felt accomplished. But when i looked at paper 1. I don't know what's to come.

Chemistry practical was average.
Chemistry paper suck.
English one suck, one good.

Tell me what now?

I'm totally hate it.

it's because u make me believe in myself; 9:18 PM
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# Last year's wishes are this year's apologies.
Saturday, October 18, 2008

Yay! I stayed up for a total of 19 hours yesterday. It wasn't a case of insomnia. It's was pure studying. Felt so accomplished suddenly, i really did quite a bit. Rushing non-stop through the books and sheets of paper with midget and val. Keith came a long after that.

Well, it's only 33 hours away to the start of our episode of the whole season of "Crossroads." Really hope i wouldn't fall sick at this period of time.

Anyway, though i don't really know what's ahead of me and time isn't really on my side. I can do it, i know.

Ready, set, go it's time to run
The sky is changing we are one
Together we can make it while the world is crashing down
Don't you turn around.

- Tokio Hotel

it's because u make me believe in myself; 2:45 PM
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# Cross Roads.
Sunday, October 12, 2008

Everything is changing.

Finally, i'm at the cross roads of my life. Nothing seems to bother me much when i'm young, cos it doesn't really matter if i screw up or not. But this time round, i'm really lost for words. 7 more days to the start of the whole trauma. What to do?

I"m feeling paranoid, lost, tired, helpless, drained, exhausted, pissed off.

Monday probably the last day of school for me. Five years of secondary school life just ended like that? I don't wanna end it. I don't wanna grow up. There's gotta be more than that. Friends would be going separate ways after that. Different schools, different commitment. Though we might promise to meet up and have fun, it just isn't the same anymore.

9th of October was probably the best day i had in school. Joy & laughter was in the air. Nothing seems to really matters when you're having fun. We had rollar chairs racing round the whole of the classroom block. It wasn't planned. It just came like that.

No time for regrets right now. I just wished that time would turned back for me to really study. Pointless to cry or tear. It ain't gonna help anyway. Study hard peeps!

"Why do all good things come to an end?" - Nelly Furtado.

it's because u make me believe in myself; 2:35 AM
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